Comeback!

Proudly saying...

This is my first post after a long (very long) hiatus! :D 

It feels like I never write anything (blog, novel, etc) for almost a year. 

I need some me-time. no.... a lots of me-time! 

I'd like to appreciate my self very well. I'd like to treat my self very carefully.

I love me with all my heart!

 love, Intan.

요즘 생활

안녕하세요! 오랜간만임돠~ ㅋㅋ 저는 뭐... 바쁘지않구요... 않지만 할일 너무 많더라구요 ㅠㅠ 요즘은 저 화장품을 팔았어요. 한국에서 오는 화장품! ㅋㅋ 에뛰드 하우스, 미쌰, 토니모리, 스킨푸드, 또 뭐지.. 움.. 바피펫도 팔구요 ㅋㅋㅋ 원래 인도네시아에서, 한국 화장품을 너무 너무 비싸거든요.. 예를들면, 한국에서 9000원인데, 여기서 아마 21000-22000원 (168000루피아) ㅠㅠ 얼마나 비싼건지... 못사라 ㅋㅋ 저를 위해서, 화이팅!! 돈 모아야돼... 없음 못 살겠다 ㅋㅋㅋ 빨리 모야! 여러분, 읽고주셔서 감사함돠~! ㅋㅋ 인탄이가.

I got my OH SO SPECIAL!

Masih inget kan waktu itu gue pernah ngepost daftar wish list make up gue... ada salah satu yang berhasil kebeli dengan susah payah. ini satu-satunya barang yang sampe mampir ke mimpi gue, tandanya emang harus dibeli ya hahahah.

Dan akhirnya, mencomot dari lapak sendiri....

Introducing..... Sleek Oh So Special 12shades palette

warnanya cakep-cakep bangeeeettttttttttt.. ada beberapa warnanya yang gue udah punya (Organza, The Mail, Boxed, Noir) tapi selebihnya belum.

Plus nya :

* super pigmented! dipake w/o eyeshadow base juga tetep keliatan warnanya.

* tahan lama. walopun 6-7jam udah crease

* pilihan warnanya banyak. masih ada 8 palette kaya gini

* warnanya keluar banget. sesuai sama yang di palette

* termasuk murah, dapet 12 warna yang pigmented kaya gini. dibawah 300 ribu.

Minus nya :

* kuasnya so-so. tapi lumayan juga sih, walaupun agak keras teksturnya

* butiran-butiran eyeshadownya beleber keluar-keluar, harus rajin dibersihin

overall : SUKA BANGET

rating : 9/10

repurchased : YES! another palette.

beli dimana? www.facebook.com/lapakIntan

PS : swatches nya menyusul yaaaa XD

xoxo

Intan.

OH GOD WHY??!!!

Semenjak jadi bencong (a.k.a banci dandan) sekarang gue jadi maniak sama make up and tools nya. ya berharap aja gitu semoga ada yang mau ngasih duit 71Milyar gue beli se Sephora hahaha (emak gue mimpi si bokap kerja dapet proyek bonus nya 71M, tapi kerjanya di kebon binatang. terus jadi momok-an deh sekeluarga hahaha)

harus nabung keras, jualan giat *btw gue skrg jualan make up juga. korean make up, usa make up* unyu banget gak sih :') murah yang jelas lebih murah dari counter.

terus semenjak gue sering melanglang buana ke Female Daily racun bencong nya menyebar ke gue, jadi keranjingan mantengin Sephora Sasa Ulta. duh gawat!

ya sekedar share aja sih....

berikut ini adalah wish list gue... gak ngerti cara dapetinnya gimana yang jelas salah satu (atau semuanya) harus bisa kebeli sama gue. SE-MANG-AT!

1. Bare Minerals Original SPF 15 Foundation + Mini Kabuki + Primer. Ada yang jual sih di Market Plaza FD harganya 100ribu mudah2an beneran segitu harganya. astagaaa BM gitu loh!

2. Sleek palette. salah satu palette eye shadow yang sukses bikin gue jadi kayak anak abg labil. masalah nya si palette ini lucu2 banget warnanya. yang gue incer, Oh So Special, Storm sama Original. ada yang jual ready stock, harganya 138ribu-an. lumayan bgt. gue baca review nya bagus2. very pigmented.

3. Felt Tip Liner. apa pun itu. yang jelas harus smudgeproof water proof no flaking crumple creasy etc. lagi ngincer Dolly Wink liquid liner tapi mahal bgt harganyaaa :( pengen nyobe milani eye tech extreme liquid liner juga. tuh semuanya aja gue coba2. abisan gak tahan cyin hahahaa

4. Coastal Scent 88 original. no need to say. kalo beli palette ini bisa deh gue gak belanja kosmetik (eyeshadow) 3taun.

5. ELF powder brush and blending brush. mayan murah sih, 35rb per brush.  bisa beli 3 atau 4 brush ya berati *bencong brush*

Ya pokoknya intinya semuanya pengen, tapi...... duitnya itu loh. hahaha :|

LOOK WHAT I'VE GOT!

Hi people! Firstly I wanna say..... IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME!!!!! I just logged in since I've reset all my password. My short term memories is my problem now lol. Since I have tons of social media and I couldn't even remember the password one by one. :P

Okay, so last months (exactly 2 months ago) my besties Siszy went to Korea *envy envy* and we have a Korean friend name Sunjung Unnie. She's so kind, nice, and I usually talking about make up stuffs, gossiping, and much more :P we (me and Siszy) really want to give her a good indonesian stuff so I decided to give her Batik Dress and it suited her very well!! :D

And She gave us some presents too which is I'm very like it!

*I've got a letter too*

*OMG LOOK! It's Skin Malgeum and sample of collagen moistfull from Etude House*

 

 *Diary, Pen, and sticker* uberly cuteee!

I will definitely use this :)

I've been using skin malgeum for about a months alongside with collagen moistfull. but I read in some article that collagen moistfull is for normal dry skin. So It doesn't suit my acne super oily skin :(

I also told Siszy to buy me some cosmetics from Etude house which I'll be review on the next post.

Now I really totally understand when Sunjung Unnie said "인탄아, 에뛰드 좀 별로야..." lol :D

Call me Make Up Addict

Happy late new year 2012! 

I am sorry I didn't write too much.I just finish my final exam and now I'm enjoying (not really enjoy) my one and half month holiday. Actually I really like school holiday season but sometimes I found it not so interesting. I mean, I don't have any plan during vacation so I just stay at home. watching tv, browsing internet, eating, yoga class, gym, and... yeah T_T

I currently in love with Make Up!!! Eyeshadow, eyeliner, blush on, lipstick, concealer, bb cream, any kind of it. I feel I could be a Pro lol! 

So here, I'd like to give you some information. what kind of make up and what kind of brand that I usually use when I'm doing some basic make up. here we go!!! >.<

1. Sunblock base. I use sunblock from my own doctor. It really good to protect your skin from UV. I use this since I was in senior high. 

2. After applying sunblock, I use Missha BB Cream No. 21 all around my face. It helps you to blemishes your skin, acne and black spot. Your skin will looks so clean and fresh. BB Cream (Blemish Balm Cream) is all in one product. 

3. Then, I apply some concealer under my eyes and eyelid. If you want it you can use to cover your black spot or acne. I use La Pensse concealer. bought it at make up store for 42000IDR (4.8USD)

photo credit : dinomarket

4. I thought my base make up is all done. Then for finishing, I use our local (Indonesian  make up product) named Wardah. it's a compact powder and I use the Ivory one. it's so smooth and really good for covering your oily skin. I forgot how much I bought it but I think it cost 27000IDR (3USD) If I'm not mistaken :D

photo source : tokowardah

5. Because of my slanted eyes -_- I used dark color of eyeshadow such as dark purple, dark brown and dark red gray eyeshadow. It really helps me to make my eyes look bigger and vividly. I use Wardah dark brown series and dark purple series.

photo source : kaskus

6. It's eyeliner time. Dunno why I'm so crazy about eyeliner. I have at least 4 different eyeliner. pencil eyeliner, liquid eyeliner, spidol eyeliner and wanna buy gel eyeliner lol >.<

Because I have a small and (almost) monolid eyes, so I really focus with eyeliner. I like black strong eyeliner. with upper lid eyes, I use liquid eyeliner from My Darling (It's really cheap. 11000IDR or 1.3USD) but I am a bit dissapointed. they say it waterproof but when i sweat a little it will smuge. the only way is I have to wait until it dry -_-"

(NOT RECOMMENDED!! the color isn't black at all and get dry easily. even before I use it)

For my under line eye, I use pencil black eyeliner from Pixy (local product) and stardust liquid eyeliner from ELF. Although the waterproof eyeliner doesn't really good but the liquid eyeliner are so amazing!! 

photo source : severluslove.blogspot.com

7. I'm not a fan of lipstick. everyday I just use lipgloss from Opera. But I recommend Wardah exclusive lipstick no. 33 peach brown. It's a natural color and not make your lips looks so bold.  :D

photos source : natassia journal

8. I seldom use mascara (except for party or special occasion) but I use Maybelline volum express. not reall story --" I prefer use the other one (Magnum Volum Express)

9. eyebrow pencil. not really use it since i still have eye brow :P but I use Viva eyebrow pencil (it's local product and VERY GOOD!!)

10. For the last, I use Body Shop Bronzer as a blush on, shimmering and finishing make up. I mean this bronzer is really helpfull and all in one. It has a glittery powder that makes my face looks shining :D

And this is me exploring make up. lol. 

So that's all about my daily basis make up. Catch you later!! 

PS : Don't forget to come to my BIG MAGAZINE. Curvies and plus size woman, that's your place!!! http://www.bigmagz.blogspot.com

My Foreign Friend

WHOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAA I AM SOOOO EXCITED JUST THINKING ABOUT IT!!

I wanna make a lots of friends from all over the world.

I wanna be an open minded person.

I wanna learn about culture from other country and the way of life.

I wanna be a super crazy famous star.

I wanna be a billionaire like Bruno Mars.

OK, stop blabbering Intan!

I'm so happy that finally I have a new friends. They came from Thai, Philippines, South Korea, Japan, USA, Singapore, Vietnam and etc.

I've told you in the previous post that I made a friends from learnkorean.ning.com and have made some observation to my new friends!

1.      Lim Sunjung (임선정 언니)

When I start learning Korean for the 1^st time… she was my 1^st friends at that time. I struggled a lot and she helps me much. Her English is good. I heard her voice for the 1^st time on skype when we had some call conversation. And omg her voice is like a child. Sweet! 언니, thank your for you kindness helping me improving my Korean! ^^

2.      Lee Goeun (이고은 언니)

I met her through learnkorean.ning.com too. Edward introduced me to her. She always keep telling me that her English is not as good as the other and she rather shy to speaking English. No no no she’s wrong! She absolutely can speak English. She should be confident. I miss talking with her on skype and her saying “what the heck!” that’s cute!

3.      Lim Woojoo (임우주 언니)

Woojoo Unnie is Goeun Unnie’s best friend. She will study abroad to USA which is I’m so envy!! On the last conversation she and Goeun Unnie hangout together and call me on Skype. I’m so envy lol. Wanna hang out with them and Sunjung Unnie too! 언니들, 내가 한국에 오면 우리 같이 놀자! ㅋㅋㅋ

4.      Kim Jihyeon (김지현 언니)

I met her for the 1^st at Livemocha when she corrected my korean submission. She now study abroad in Australia. I hope I could meet her someday even in Indonesia, Oz or Korea. And when I wrote a letter to her and tagged her facebook, she told me that she will reply my letter with the real one. whoa, can’t wait!

5.      Edward

내 사랑하는 동생!! 색시한 목소리… you can say Edward is my 1^st friend on learnkorean chat room. Basically he’s humble to everyone, ridiculous, joker, and sometimes sooooooooooooo noisy!! He has a sexy vibe voice. I melt when I hear his voice for the 1^st time but now I become so numb lmao. He actually from Israel and now living in Japan. He imitates TOP’s rapping on Tonight but he failed ROFLOL. yo! “언제부터 였는지!” HAHAHA. Me, Edward, Goeun Unnie, Chris, Zach and Woojoo Unnie made an epic group named 외국시대(Foreign Generation) LOL and Ed is the leader. I know Ed good at Korean but he just being shy. ckckck..

6.      Navin

He’s Thailand and Italian and Hindian and… what else I don’t know. He has a korean girlfriend. His gf is so cute! I saw them through facebook. He’s now learning korean so dilligently. for his gf. wow I touched seeing his effort! I met him on learnkorean.ing too alongside with Edward. He’s talkative and nice.

7.      Lee Dongeun (이동은 언니)

She’s from Busan. AND SHE HAVE SUPER DUPER CUTE MICKY MOUSE RING! We usually talking together with the others on Skype. She told me that she had a friend who stayed in Jakarta. Oh… I just wish that she come to Indonesia, meet her friend and we can meet too! J

8.      Chris McDonald

He’s American living in Korea. He’s an english teacher. His Korean is really good and he could even made some frustrating korean sentences. I should learn a lot from him. I envy him, in his young age he came to Korea to teach english and living alone. Although I’m no 20 but my parents still didn’t gimme permit to stay one night in my friend’s house. 헐.

9.      Princess Jieun (We should called her Princess. lol :P)

Jieun’s real name is Umi. She from Philippine and SHE HAS A KOREAN BOYFRIEND. 부러워 ㅋㅋㅋ And her bestfriend is a girl friend from 오빠 that I know. Whatta small world. She’s talking loudly when we gather on conference but she’s so so so funny! I even call her 지은 엄마… 하하하하

10.  Kyungmin Joe (경민 오빠)

He’s Edward’s Oppa lol. He live in Melbourne now, study abroad of course. I didn’t have a good opportunity to talk with him bcuz he’s so busy part timing in bar. Oz-Indo have 4 hours different so we couldn’t talk a lot T_T 

11.  Zachary

He’s Vietnamese living in Singapore. He’s currently learning Korean and seems getting a difficult to speaking korean BUT at least he try to speak  korean with us. I appreciated his effort. Even he speak with slow and dictation… *clapping hands* I wish we could talk together with the others on Skype cuz when I called him he always at office T_T

Anyway for you information, I NEVER MEET THEM BEFORE. I only knows them through internet and learnkorean chat room. But I feel that all of them is my friend, my best friend. You might say it’s kinda impossible making friends from internet, that you never meet them face to face. But I did and it works. they are all kind, really helps me, and I really wanna meet them all. I am a picky person but I feel nothing’s wrong with them. 언니들 오빠들 우리 꼭 만나야 돼 !!! 

 photo  credit : Navin F Hanvesakul

after 3 years struggling with myself

i wish i could back to 3 years ago. when i might not know you. when i might not know what internet is. when i still pure and hangout with my friends cheerfully. maybe i wouldn't end up loving you.

loving you is not a crime, it's normal. it came from the deepest of my heart.

loving you is not a sin, it's legal and humanized.

loving you is my choice. if you plead me and asking me to stop loving you, i just could not.

loving you is my choice, even if you're with the other woman WHICH IS better than me.

truthfully this is my first time hold a heartache so long and so deep. never shared it to anyone. just keep it my self, alone and until numb.

this is not fling, it's long lasting. do you think or considering me as a child or hubbub teenage that have crush on you? how come teenage can loving one person for 3 yrs even she knows that her love is unrequited?

i never ask you to love me or to give your affection to me. i never ask you to be my boyfriend, i still have pride.

i even support you to back to your ex girlfriend, and you do that. i smile outside but i feel painful inside. i am a good pretender.

do you know how happy I am when you replied my chat even just a simple words like 'hey, yes, i'm fine' ?

do you know that i always smile like crazy when you ask me "how have you been? what r u doin these days?"

do you know how curious i am stalking your facebook, reading your status update and comment?

do you know how broken i am when i read you're now is in relationship (again) with her?

do you know how excited i am hearing your story about some geek stuff even i don't know at all?

i wanna blame you but i don't have right to. that's your choice to be with her.

i even wanna scream out loud to you, to say what i feel. to say that i really love you even i don't know the reason.

i even still imagine that we are supposed to be together EVEN I know it would be NEVER HAPPEN, even in the next life.

so what i want to do is just erasing you from my mind. if i could. IF I COULD.

To Mr xxx, just be happy. with her.

YOU'VE BEEN CAUGHT!

Hahaha so this is what my friends told me a couple days ago.

Do you still remember the man and I've told you in the previous post? 

My friend said that he's been caught keep an eye to me. stare at me while asking for mineral water. omg this is so epic. I'm not over confident but that's the truth.

And today I attended a substitute class and there was him! And when I looked back to asked my friend, I stole a glance to him and he was stare at me too. what a coincidence LOL XD

Anyway don't take too serious cuz this is just my mood booster..

You (Especially GOD) knows who've been stole my heart for a very long time. :P

HAVE A NICE WEEKEND (though I still have one class to attend and it's tomorrow. sigh!)

ASSHITMENT Y U NO GIVE ME SOME AIR

ehm.. ehm...*tes suara* AAARRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHH anjir gila yah tugas gue banyak banget buat seminggu ini. 5 dari 8 mata kuliah ada tugas semuah dong T___T

1. Ekspresi Media : Shooting profile, dikumpulin minggu depan
2. Produksi Siaran TV : bikin liputan wawancara, naskah berita, sama liputan siaran buat uts
3. Teknik Reportase : sama juga, bikin wawancara tp lebih ribet deh, auk ah
4. Praktek Radio : bikin naskah siaran, bumper dan kawan-kawannya. siaran minggu depan
5. Seminar : bikin latar belakang judul proposal, bab 1 sama 2 lah intinya. anjdrot.

Rutinitas gue semua terbengkalai; maen game, nonton korea, belajar bahasa, nonton youtube hahahaha.
Dan kayaknya sih ini tugas bakalan berlanjut sampe uts. fiuhhhhhhh.

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제가 이야기를 있는데... 제 좋아하는 남자 이직 기억해냐? 그래, 맞아 그 남자.
넌 알지? 난 그 남자랑 이제 좀 친했어 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 자기가 제 전화 번호를 물어 보는거야..

10 things about me part unlimited (english version)

I hate when someone’s calling over me and ask me this and that while I’m watching film. I can’t concentrate at all.

  I lick my own spit. For a long time ago, I never pay attention with Korean Drama. And now I’m such a movie freak. Help me! help!

My ideal man: Daniel Henney and Lee Phillips. Such a hottie “Ajusshi”

 I love Korean-American guy or mix blooded guy like Taecyeon, Nichkhun, Lee Phillips, Adrian Lee, Daniel Henney and Ricky Kim. Oh, would you be my collection?!?!

    I challenging myself to be a film director. I have a several script and always imagine scene per scene or sequence per sequence. God, help me. show me Your Way.

This is random. I like to search “cool names” or “unique names” on google and doing some research to find an unique name.

When I get bored, I directly travelling around the world by…… open the google map-street view style. Oh it such an amazing views. 

    I learn Korean and Mandarin at the same time. I find no difficulties. It’s so interesting especially writing session. Fun fun fun!!

   I wish my father were Donald Trump.

I creating my own character look-a-like Tala Elle Samman from MyFashDiary. She’s sooooooooooo pretty. 

 credit : Myfashdiary.com

VoA

Tadi pagi, gue sama nyokab nonton Dunia Kita VoA di Metro TV. asal tau aja itu satu2nya program TV Yang paling gue tunggu2 setiap minggunya. Kalo ketinggalan nonton, bisa nonton di facebook atau youtube. cita-cita gue setelah masuk jurusan broadcast, gue pengen banget kerja di VoA. even gue  tau kualifikasinya pasti susah. tapi gimana ya, yang namanya pengen banget.... susah dijelasinnya, kayak udah ngebet. 

Pas lagi iklan, nyokab gue cerita tentang temen-temennya yang udah diminta ceramah kemana-kemana. ke luar negeri. China, Hongkong, Amerika juga termasuk. terus gue bilang sama nyokab gue,

"Mah, aku pengen banget kerja di VoA. Nanti kalo kita di Amerika, aku kerja, Mama buka lembaga dakwah macem American Islamic Foundation gitu mah. namanya Al Sunnah Wal Jamaah Foundation (Maklum emak gue islamnya nyunah banget) hahaha". terus nyokab gue bilang "Amin... Mama doain semoga kakak bisa kerja di VoA." Yang namanya doa orang tua Insya Allah diijabah kan? iya kan bener kan? *maksa*

So, INSYA ALLAH mudah-mudahan 2-4 taun lagi gue bisa kerja di Amerika. amin :D

Korean writing exercise

안녕하세요!
여러분 잘 지내셨어요? 내가 왜 한국어를 쓰고 궁금하죠? 걱정하지마세요... 제가 설명이 할거예요. 요즘에는 제가 한국어 배워는데, 6달 동안 혼자 배웠어요. 선생님이 없고, 그냥 책을 읽고 음악을 듣고, 영화를 보고 그리고 한국 친구들이랑 얘기했어요. 한글을 연습이 많잖아요.
처음에서 한국어 배우는데, 좀 되게 "아.. 진짜 어렵다. 답답해.. 난 이해가 안돼!"그런 생각했어는데. 근데 요즘엔 "와..한국어 너무 재미있다! 이제 한국 사람이랑 얘기할 수 있어.."라고 그렇게 생각해요.
전 언어를 대해서 배우고 큰 열정을 가지고 있어요. 한국어 배우 전에 제가 중국어를 먼저 배웠어요. 3년 동안 학교에서 배웠어요. 중국어는 약한 어렵지만 재미있어요. 여러분들이 새로운 언어를 배울 의사가있다면, 지금부터 시작할까요! 언어를 과정을 필요가 없었어서 그냥 혼자로 배워요. 내일 봐요! ^_^

Hi!
how are you guys? you maybe wondering why am I writing in Korean? don't worry, I'll explain you. I am currently learning Korean, 6months already and I am learning by myself. No teacher, just reading a book, listening music, watching film and talking with my Korean friends. I am practicing hangeul so much!
First time I learned korean, I thought "Ah.. It's really hard! so frustrating! I don't understand!" but now I think "Learning Korean is so fun! Now I can talk to Korean people"
I have a big passion about learning language. Before I learn Korean, I learned Mandarin first. I have been learned Mandarin for 3 years at senior high school. Mandarin is hard but fun. Guys, If you have intention learning new language, you can start it right now! you don't have to take a language course just learning by yourself. so, see you tomorrow!

Hi!
apakabar teman-temankyu? mungkin lo bingung knapa gue nulis pake bahasa korea? haha jangan bingung, gue jelasin ya. gue baru-baru ini belajar bahasa korea. baru 6 bulan sih. nggak ada guru sama sekali, cuma baca buku dengerin lagu nonton film sama ngobrol sama orang koreanya langsung. gue latian nulis hangeul sampe mampus hahaha.
dulu pas awal-awal blajar korea, gue mikirnya "anjir nih susah banget. bisa gila gue, gak ngerti.." tapi sekarang gue mikir "anjir gampang banget nih! skarang gue bisa ngobrol sama orang koreanya langsung."
gue punya minat besar sama bahasa. sbelom gue blajar korea, gue blajar mandarin duluan. gue blajar mandarin 3taun di SMA. agak susah sih tapi seru lah.. so, kalo lo punya niat mau belajar bahasa, belajar dari sekarang! gak usah ikut-ikutan les segala, belajar sendiri aja. dadaaahhh :D

From Sophie Kinsella to Zara Zettira

1. I'm thinking about buying iTouch instead of Gtab. but I want both of them to be mine. all I need is music player, pdf reader and video player.

2. I currently in love reading Sophie Kinsella a.k.a Madeleine Wickham novel original version (except shopaholic series cuz i'm not intend to read that. too boring and too long) I prefer stand alone novel like the undomestic goddess and can you keep a secret. it's really tempting and so unpredictable. I get in love easily with their character especially John Harper and Nathaniel. AAAAHHHHHH if i were his girlfriend.

3. I've read Zara Zettira tweets and she posted some story--based on true stories about daughter of a surgeon which is very socialite and mingles with the socialite top high class jetset. vodka addict, drugs addict and she got some mysterious disease. illogical disease called blablabla syndrome. GOD THIS IS SO SCARY! you should go to her blog www.zarazettirazr.blogspot.com and read from the 1st part.

4. I have some korean friends and they are very kind to me. like they willing to help me improving my korean, correcting my grammar and chatting with me if they have a free time. I'm so happy I meet them cuz you know going abroad is one of my biggest aim. AIM. AIM

5. for you guys who have been read my previous story called Meet Me in San Francisco and if you really like the character, plot and the ending. yup, that was my story. that WAS. actually they reflects me and my 3yrs crush. OFKORS with the different ending. we end up on each other way (means, we're not together) because.... to be honest he abandoned me HAHAHAHA. but seriously, I will say yes if someone propose me at the night at the top of twinpeaks! ;)

6. talking about love. I (finally) have a crush. he's same age as me. my college mate. we're taking the same major. he has a good academic score and good potential non academic. he was born in the same months as me but earlier. he's religious, generous, funny, intelligent and smart. hahahaha oke stop like i said before i don't want to be suspicious. oke, take it easy. take it nonchalantly :P this isn't the right time.

7. I am so in love with Taecyeon's voice. so sexy and cool! 택연 오빠 목소리가 너무 좋아!! 색시하고 멋있어 것 같아! do you know Taecyeon? you didn't know? oh puhlease Googling. 택연 오빠 알아? 몰라? 구글해주세요!!! ㅋㅋㅋㅋ.

Elders please don't read

I have several thoughts that keeps popping in my head hahaha. elders please don't read. this is not the things that you might be discuss at gathering. here we are :

1. Talking about families esp big fam not the daily fam, sometimes I think they were too interfering and patronizing a small matters that I can even solve on my own without have to discuss with them.*bee's buzzing*

2. Rookies Indonesian Celebs are just... sucks. uhm, they really didn't good in acting and act like they're superstar that had a hectic schedule. haha man, this is epic shit.

3. Seriously Government we don't need mall. a big huge mall that selling over 100% than the normal price. we'd prefer some open up area like lake with a small park, a park like central park Manhattan (but this is absolutely doesn't work cuz ofkors they don't have enough money to build some park. that's an alibi actually. and some uneducated people will mess it up with a lots of unreadable gravity or 'Jakmania was here' --- bzzz and also littering and spitting. that's a basic indo citizen)

4. I ........ um.. have a crush HAHAHAHA no I'm not gonna explain this further.

5. Anna Wintour and Karl Lag---- i can't even write his name, are really 'ashawl'. why? they HATE fat people. seriously who needs Vogue anymore?!

6. Worship to Jean Paul Gaultier cuz he treat FAT girls as a human.

So, don't go away and still with Keeping up with my messy life. #KardashiansFail

ashawl = ass hole. it's... uhm, british accent (maybe)

Ekekekek

suddenly I feel want to typing about anything. uhm... not anything but some randomness about my almost-perfect life.

all of my exams are finally over. the last was tv announcing stuffs and we all went to outta town done our outdoor exams. here all my hubbubs start hahaha.

for the very 1st time i was so excited and thought that it'll be really fun. and in fact yes, it was. i even meet my crushy-one sided-unrequited love. hahahaha sounds quirky bcuz you know... i never felt this feeling about 3 yrs past after the incident hahaha but ok, i was going to move on. 30% still on progress.

he's kind, not really a good looking but i prefer inside not appearance (seriously i mean, who's gonna love the drop-dead gorgeous man if he's stinky and morons?!) okay next. he's religious and generous. having a good academic and non-academic skills. he was in charged being an artsy people behind the art some stuffs makers. OK STOP I DON'T WANT TO BE........... suspicious hahahahaha. *not only me who feel the same. i even have 2 another friends which was in the same situation as me. okay, hmmm i'm not mentioning you. the secret is save* hahaha

okay so my day outta town was so hectic but i felt happy. stayed in the same room with my crazy mate, confess about each others crush and end up munching noodles in the early morning. like i never do that before hahaha.

so the last day is a shocked day. i was choosen being the queen and I heard that some girls really wished that she were the queen. but sorry bit*ch i stole your crown muahahahaha.

now i have 2 months off during fasting month and thought is gonna be a long boring holiday since i'm not going to meet up. but hey, who the hell will care? like he'll care? hahaha well I'm not suppose to say this but you, yes you is really popping and spinning in my head. husshh hussh go away!

Dear xXx, so if you read this, gimme some sign.

Galau setahun terakhir

Gue udah nyusun beberapa kegalauan gue selama setaun terakhir, itungannya dari 31 May 2010 sampe sekarang ya.)

1. gue banyak maunya. gue kuliah jurusan penyiaran harusnya on the track yang nantinya bakalan kerja di bidang penyiaran macem radio ato tipi gitu lah. tapi jujur gw sama sekali kagak tertarik, kalo radio sih masih mending ya. kalo tipi... emmm, gak deh. apalagi di indo. bukannya gue mengdiskreditkan ato gimana ya, tapi kalo untuk batu loncatan aja sih gapapa. kalo untuk settle job kayanya enggak deh. gue lebih tertarik sama sesuatu yang ada sangkut pautnya sama suatu negara/hubungan antar negara2. merhatiin kebudayaannya blablablabla gitu. apalagi gue kan beneran serius banget kuadrat pangkat empat pengen kerja di luar negeri. setelah gue pikir2 lagi kayanya si mau di voa atau kbri bagian radio station macem kbs radio gitu lah.

2. nah ini nih, gw ga mau tau gimana caranya harus mpot-mpotan lulus kuliah PAS 3.5TAUN. terus galau dulu deh, antara kerja dulu atau langsung s2 lagi. pengennya apply beasiswa secara beasiswa master bececeran dimana2. nyarinya si amrik (sukur2 di boston atawa cali lah yang banyak wong indo nya hahaha). s2 gw malah melenceng banget dari broadcast, pengen ambil asian-american studies tapi gak ada dasar hubungan international haha kampfrettt. ini akibat kelabilan gw semasa sma.

3. bahasa mandarin gue udah gak se kece dulu T_T dulu kalo ke itc belanja apa aja bisa dikasih diskonn, skrg cuma bs ngomong ni hao sama wo shi yinni ren doang. salah siapa? siapa? bahasa korea hahahahaha. bedebah, akhirnya kena juga virus hallyu setar ke diri gue yang sangat sangat idealis ini HAHAHAHAHA. 응..... 한국 사람... 미안. 한국어 도워 줘 ㅋㅋㅋ. 혼자 배웠 진짜 불푠했어 ㅋㅋㅋ. dulu baca hanzi masih lancar, sekarang boro-boro. 我觉得 汉字狠狠很多南现在哈哈哈哈. kalo boleh maruk sih pengen minta kapasitas otak 30TB biar semua hanzi hapal, grammar korea juga hapal. tapi kan our brain capacity is unlimited hahah. tapi kalo dipikir2 ngapain juga si gw blajar bahasa korea, gara2 nonton pilem terus pengen liatin artis2 cakep hasil oplas macem iminho itu? apa pengen joget centil bohay ala snsd? hanya aku dan Tuhan dan tahu. *berdoa gelar sajadah*

4. harus latian bahasa inggris lagi. dulu si semasa sma mending ya, ada temen2 english circle yang bisa diajak ngomong. dikampus skrg boro2 -_-- ngomong dikit udah dibilang kesok-an padahal gw emang pernah tinggal di london, walopun cuman numpang kencing di celana sama jatoh dari bus doang. percaya plis. percaya !!!!＊ｍａｔａｂｅｒｂｉｎａｒ－ｂｉｎａｒ　ｈｉｄｕｎｇ　ｋｅｍｂａｎｇ　ｋｅｍｐｉｓ　ｋａｙａ　ｋｕｅ　ｌａｐｉｓ＊

5. makin lama makin capek sama ulahnya petinggi2 bangsa endonesa yang adil dan beradab (baca : korupsi dan tidak bermoral) enek banget sama berita di tipi, itu mulu itu mulu. si nganu kabur ke kamboja lah, jadi buronan polisi WALOPUN CUMA DI WEB NYA DOANG. si itu radang toket terus di operasi lah, si anu skandal poto syur sama artis inu lah. yang bikin bangga cuma anak2 skolahan menang olimpiade, anak2 smk berhasil bikin robot sm mobil hybrid. apalagi kalo liat inpotemen asli LEBAY AKUT MAXX 200%. gaya bahasanya bikin pengen nimpuk tipi, terlalu hipertonis sarkastis pentatonis pake acara mulut di bengkok2in, mata di belo2in... struk ntar tau rasa loh.

6. jakarta makin macet keterlaluan parah banget subhanallah astagfirullah. apalagi polusi asep2 truk sama metromini bedebah itu, harus cepet2 di binasakan. apalagi blok m macet mulu gara2 ada si flyover mau dibikin. ganggu abeess --" kan jadinya gw suka ngebanding2in gitu. di boston tuh ya BOSTON ITU TAU KAN BOSTON???!! jalan tolnya di bawah tanah terus atasnya dibikin taman2 gitu yang unyu2 utk ngurangin polusi. di Dallas TX jalanannya gede banget bisa guling2 bolak balik, adem, pu'unnya gak terlalu banyak tapi rimbunn. lapangan parkir gede2 banget. jadi pengen cepet2 cabs dari sindang trs pindah k luar. called me chauvinism lah. hahaha. penghianat bangsa juga boyeee.

7. dulu si gw klo udh tua pengen stay 4eva di amrik gitu tapi pas gw baca2 lagi skrg kayanya si amrik lagi berada di masa keterpurukkan yak. di london juga enak sih which is pulang kampung lagi gue. tapi skrg untuk stay disana atawa jadi citizen sono malah dibikin ribet skrg. yg paling gampang si harus kimpoi-in orang sono baru bs apply citizen. -_-" kalo ke china atau korea atau jepang si kayanya enggak ah... kurang jauh hahaha (belagu) satu2nya harapan sekarang kalo ga london ya norway atau kanada atau austria lah. *banyak mau*

8. gw gak suka muzik-muzik indo macem band2 baru yang abis rilis album, melejit, fames, trus tenggelem. apalagi band skrg aneh2. BALIKIN SHEILA ON SEVEN PADI GIGI COKLAT YANG ADA KIKANNYA. band2 kaya gitu mah sono aja gih ke malaysia, laku noh disono. ato gak ke Ansan di korea tu, di pasarnya isinya lagu2 melayu dangdut koplo smuah. bukannya ga ngehargain muzik indonesa seh tapi kan selera orang beda2 toh. kaya misalnya, gue suka banget sama instrumen saxo macem jeff kashiwa (the sax pack gitu) terus ada yg maksa2 gw suka lagu gov....ya band indo lah pokok'e... jangan harap ya. itu sih sama aja lo ngemis2 follback ke gw -_-"

9. twitter akhir2 ini (udah lama sih) banyak banget polisi twitternya. suka rese kadang2 kalo mau maen diawasin mulu. iya sih emang gw tau fitur RT atau Retweet itu kayak apa. tapi yaudah lah ya, namanya jg twitter buat seru2an doang. twitter bukan agama yang harus dipatuhin peraturannya. terserah si mau bilang gw rt abuser atau apa, toh gw gak sering2 ngeretweet kok. hal sepele aja kaya gini di permasalahin amat --" gak suka ya tinggal unfollow. susah amat. apalagi ada yg protes gara2 gw ngetweet pake bahasa korea mulu. hahahahasu GET A LIFE MEN, GET A LIFE!

10. facebook pun skrg macem limbah pembuangan sampah. banyak bet ol shop ecek2 yang ngetagged foto bahkan ada yang sampe niat banget. ngeadd-ngePOKE-ngetagged seenak udel. kbykn si baju2 ato elektronik. satu dua aja si oke, lama2 gengges abis. udah maksa2 minta di approve, ujung2nya NAWARIN OBAT LANGSING. gak butuh gue nyet. udah gitu maksa2 mesen barangnya dia cuma karna 'free ongkir' PADAHAL lokasi dia di daerah mana gitu di luar pulau jawa. lha gue di jawa yg notabene dia juga pasti ngambil barang2nya dari jawa. bego aja kalo gw beli harus ke dia -_-" no offense ya, selama ini gw emang ga pernah beli barang2 dari ol shop yg gak gw kenal, kecuali temen gw sendiri yang gw tau orangnya.

11. -gw rasa postingan yg ini terlalu rasis, jadi skip aja lah- :p

12. kayanya udah give up nulis novel. gw orangnya lumpur-lumpuran si (baca: mood-moodan si) dulu gw lagi smangat2nya novel gw sebulan selese. udah gw kirim ke penerbit. ya, ni penerbit itu favorit gw lah. gw ga pernah beli buku laen kcuali disitu karena penulis favorit gw dinaungi sm penerbit itu. udah 3 bulan gw tunggu, gada kejelasan dong. trs gw tanya naskah gw bs dibalikin apa ga. kata si penerbit bisa. yaudah gw mnta dibalikin. tp katanya mbaknya dia mau nyari dulu naskah. oke kan tu gw tngguin sminggu. smnggu kmudian,ad aja alesannya. karyawan ga masuk lah,naskah keselip lah. apa lah. gw mention+dm di twitter ga di bales. ternyata twitter gw di BLOCK haha tai. gak pro banget si lu T******B**** kalo emg ga bs balik mah bilang aja ga bisa,gw jg ga bakal nagih2 sampe ngemis2 gitu kali. bangke. rencana si pengen self publishing di salah satu publisher online YANG PALING HIP sejagat twitter tapi masih mikir2 lagi si..soalnya klo self publisher, buku gw ga ada di display2 gramedia T_T

13. 3 yrs has passed. How do I say goodbye to someone I never really had? Why do my tears fall so endlessly for someone who was never really mine? Why is it I miss someone I was never really with? And why do I love someone whose love was never really mine? Sometimes we have just to let go of someone who matters to us not because we want to but because we have to, and its the right things to do... let us remember that we cant force anyone to love us...we cant beg someone to stay when he wants to leave and be with someone else...this is what live is all about... however the end f love is not the end of life.. it should be the beginning of understanding that love lives for a reason and leaves with a lesson. *buat yang ngerasa aja (kalo orangnya baca), buat yang kenal sama gw 'luar-dalem'.* let's call it quit dude.

14. udahan aja lah ya curhatan gue yang berkepanjangan ini.

15. note : ini cuma kumpulan dari unek2 gw selama setaun belakang ini terhitung sejak 31 may 2010. disini gw sama sekali tidak melibatkan SIAPAPUN kecuali instansi atau lembaga terkait yang namanya juga gw sensor jadi lo ga bisa seenaknya nebak2. untuk point 13, gausah di tanggepin lah. sesungguhnya itu kumpulan quote kaskus aja kok AGAGAGAGAGAHUAHUAHUAHUAH. untuk point 7, emang bener. gw ada rencana pindah WN.

salam pis lop en gaul.

(for my foreign friend, I am so sorry couldn't translate it to english or korea. that's too long! :p)

My Life's Dream

"Do you know? semua prestasi pada awalnya adalah sebatas impian pelakunya. impian itu selalu ada di benaknya dalam jangka waktu yang lama hingga lambat laun dengan semangat yang membara, kerja keras, pengorbanan dan kesabaran maka impian menjadi kenyataan!!!" - Dr. Atha Albarakat.

Jadi kepikiran pengen bikin daftar impian hidup nih.hehehe. oke here we go :

1. Lulus kuliah pas 3.5 tahun dengan nilai tertinggi (IP Minimal = 3.6)
2. Dapet kerjaan yang sesuai dengan minat dan mencukupi daily needs
3. Kerja di Radio / TV jadi Produser/ PD.
4. Have my own big size clothing store with affordable price
5. Kuliah S2 di luar negeri jurusan bisnis atau Asian American Studies
6. Jadi perempuan terkenal yang membanggakan Indonesia dalam bidang apapun!
7. Umroh bertiga terus plesiran ke Mesir, Turki dan Dubai
8. BIG MAGAZINE beneran jadi sebuah majalah cetak
9. Nikah sama diplomat/engineer/accountant/entrepreneur/executive.
10. Keliling Europe (lagi) & USA

"Rasa senang atau suka adalah modal awal untuk menyatakan semangat dalam menggapai target hidup ini."

Apa perbedaan antara obsesi dan target?

Obsesi atau cita-cita adalah sesuatu yang hendak diwujudkan tetapi belum menentukan langkah-langkah teknis secara rinci menuju kesana.
sedangkan Target adalah sesuatu yang hendak dicapai dengan segala upaya yang dimilik termasuk langkah teknis untuk mewujudkannya.

Oke, jadi target gue saat ini adalah :

1. IP semester 2 lebih besar dari 3.7 atau 4.00
2. Bahasa Inggris semakin lancar
3. Menurunkan berat badan (berapapun yang penting turun!hehehe)
4. Magang selama liburan
5. Member BigMagz di Facebook mencapai 200 orang
   
6. Dalam 2 tahun kedepan sudah punya toko baju online/real
7. Nikah diusia kurang dari 25tahun
8. Puasa senin-kamis

tapi, yang namanya cita-cita pasti aja ada halangannya. maka itu gue sudah memprediksi halangan apa aja yang bakal menghambat target dan obsesi gue.

1. Tugas-tugas nilainya gak maksimal, nilai UAS jelek-jelek :(
2. di Internet juga belom banyak orang tau BIG MAGZ.
3. Ada Matkul yang ngulang, IP gak sesuai target (jangan sampe. amin!!!)
4. Nggak ada waktu dan uang lebih untuk les bahasa Cina
5. Gak ada niat untuk ngurusin badan, males jalan pagi. hehehe :p
6. Mau kuliah di luar negeri tapi gak dapet beasiswa... kalo pake uang sendiri, biaya mahal
7. Gak punya modal untuk mulai usaha (at least 25-30juta)
8. Belom punya pacar sampe sekarang hahahha *gak penting juga dibahas*

Kira-kira, mustahil banget gak sih mimpi dan cita-cita gue???

"Kemustahilan adalah keinginan yang manusia ciptakan sendiri, yaitu ketika akal pikiran mereka dipenuhi oleh hal-hal negatif dan hati mereka diliputi keputusasaan."

Nah, guys. coba bikin daftar target hidup dan cita-cita kamu sendiri kemudian membacanya berulang-ulang agar kamu semakin termotivasi untuk mewujudkan semua target hidupmu! semangaaaaattt dan yakin ada jalan untuk mewujudkannya *minjem kata-katanya salah satu personil Soulvibe*

My Goals and My Aims

Mau ngayal-ngayal dikit boleh yah.. soalnya kata orang-orang kalo ngayal hal yang positif dan didukung dengan usaha pasti Insya Allah kesampean hehehe :D

Jadi gini, sebelum tidur gue selalu menghayal :
1. Lulus kuliah dengan nilai cumlaude dan jadi outstanding student. gue maju ke podium and give some speech for my convocation. memandang nyokab dan adik gue dengan rasa bangga karena gue berhasil lulus kuliah sesuai target dan lulus dengan cepat.

2. Kuliah S2 dibidang yang gue suka. sebenernya banyak banget nih. gue pengen ambil kuliah Fashion Business, Management atau Asian-American Studies. maish bingung sama yang S2 ini, tapi Insya Allah gue emang niat banget pengen kuliah S2.

3. Kuliah S2 di Universitas Luar Negeri seperti di Amerika, UK, Perancis atau China. kalo di Amerika gue pengen banget kuliah di UCLA,UCB, atau Fashion Institute. di UK, ya Cambridge aja lah gak muluk-muluk *belagu*, di Perancis masih belom tau.. tapi yang jelas pengen banget kuliah disana. kalo di China gue mau di Shanghai Jiao Tong atau Nanjing Universitynya. aahhh ya ampun ini cita-cita gue dari dulu bisa kuliah di luar negeri dengan fully scholarship. AMIN :)

4. Umroh / Naik Haji sekeluarga. kalo mampu dan ada rezeki gue mau bayarin semua keluarga gue. bukannya lebay atau apa, tapi kok setiap kali liat orang2 pulang umroh kok kayanya ngiriii banget. apalagi klo ngeliat masjidil haram, tiba-tiba air mata ngucuur gitu aja. antara pengen banget kesana dan ngiri sama orang-orang yang udah kesana. Ya Allah SWT, izinkan aku untuk berkunjung ke rumahMu ya.

5. Big Magazine get nationalized and hopefully become a real magazine. ya, maksud gue real magazine disini : bener-bener berwujud. ada bentuknya, dan di pajang di stand-stand majalah. banyak banget orang-orang yang bertubuh besar yang agak kesulitan untuk memilih bajunya. mudah2an dengan adanya Bigmagz ini sedikit bisa membantu. AMIN!! :D

6. Mau keliling dunia. sebenernya pengen banget ke semua benua. at least gue harus ninggalin jejak langkah disana. maunya sih ke Maroko, Maldives, Fiji, South Africa, Turki, Bahrain. lha?! kenapa banyakan negara arab ya?hahaha mungkin sekalian mencari jodoh.

7. Dapet kerjaan yang enak dengan posisi yang cukup 'gue-banget'. sebenernya gue bukan tipe orang kantoran yang kerja dari jam 8-5.bosen juga kali selama itu ngendon aja dikantor. kalo masalah kerjaan gue masih bimbang sama sekali nih. antara pengen kerja kantoran tapi pengen buka butik big size juga. mungkin gue lebih ke entrepreneur kali ya.

8. Mau nyoba kerja di radio. gue kuliah di broadcasting tapi sama sekali gak ada minat kerja di jurusan penyiaran (kerja di tv). astagaaaa mungkin sebenernya salah jurusan kali ya gue, tapi gak juga sih. gue masih mau nyoba kerja di radio. tapi kata mamake, klo kerja di radio gajinya kecil. duh mah, itu sih udah gak jaman. aku kan nyari pengalaman dulu, bukan gaji. ya emang gak munafik sih, semua orang juga perlu uang, tapi pengalaman lebih berharga! :)

9. Mau banget ikutan summer course di USA. I don't know why.

10. Mau tinggal di DUBAI. DUBAI. DUBAI! duh berlee' banget gue. dari dulu banget gue emang obsesi pengen tinggal di dubai. di apartemen burj khalifa nya. caranya? cari suami orang Dubai. hahaha gak deng. ya gue masih gak tau caranya yang jelas suatu saat gue pengen tinggal di Dubai.

11. Lulus TOEFL dengan nilai 580. kenapa pasang standar tinggi banget? soalnya gue ikut patokan UK. kalo singapore atau USA kan minimal 550 sedangkan UK 580. ya kenapa gak coba ikutin yang lebih tinggi? :p

12. The last. mau punya suami orang Jawa. kenapa harus orang Jawa? ah ya gatau. pokoknya kata mama aku harus nyari calon orang Jawa. eh, gak orang jawa juga sih. tapi sumatera bawah juga. err, bukan rasis sih. tapi tuntutan.

13. Sesuai status update di Facebook. Urgently need : man 20-25, muslim, single, javanese/arabic, engineer/ designer/ entrepreneur/ musician, established, loving, care, could be able to fulfill our daily needs, not a jerk,accepted me just the way I am. send your CV to my heart :D

Ya, itu adalah beberapa wish gue untuk saat ini. mudah-mudahan salah satunya bisa tercapai atau ALHAMDULILLAH semuanya bisa tercapai. AMIN :)

The photoshoot

Hi everyone! :D
here are some of my photo shoot with my besties named Tari, Reina and Rina. and this is taken by Rina, one of the best photographer (according to me) :P
very nice picture and very good scene.. even though this place just near from Tari's house at basket field and the empty street. so silent, and cozy but still HOT weather!
hope you like it :)